That Time I Published A Book On A Whim
As you may or may not know, I had a rather large breakdown in 2010.
I have written about it on the blog before, and this time last year I was even invited onto This Morning to talk about it. I’ve always felt it was important to speak out – to show that while I was once quite literally curled up in the corner bawling, I’m now mostly ok. I can construct sentences. I can raise a child. You can come back from something that at the time, feels like the end of everything.
While I was recovering, I began writing a book about my experience… but I didn’t get very far with it. That writing was what made up the bulk of the blog posts I published here a couple of years ago. Putting them into a book and self publishing had always been on my list of things to do.
When I began doing my “Miracle Morning” practice, I used my early morning quiet time to work on the book. It was hard going, but I think if I’m honest, it was probably more to do with my being “paralysed by perfectionism” than anything else. Despite the fact I was really just editing together a collection of blog posts that had been on this site for two years, I was nervous about putting it out into the market. I delayed actually finishing the book because I was scared to put it out there and ask people to pay for it.
I hadn’t even thought about how or where I would sell it; I couldn’t really see that far ahead. Then, last night in a fit of “ohforgoodnesssakejustgetonwithitwouldyou” I finished editing, knocked together the most basic of covers, downloaded a plugin and hey presto – my book is for sale. Here’s a great place to sell books.
The moment I hit “Publish” and put it out there, I actually thought I might be sick. It’s absolutely terrifying. Not so much because of the content; I am not ashamed of my mental health struggles. But I suddenly feel very vulnerable, asking people to pay for my writing. What if they think it’s crap?
I feel like that lady in the video that went viral on Facebook recently – you know, where she just stands in the middle of the street in her underwear?
On the one hand, I want to take it down from the site, hide it away and work on it some more – for at least another six months.
On the other hand, a few people have already bought a copy and I am thrilled beyond belief. I feel like the time I abseilled off the local college building: I was terrified for weeks before and throughout the actual abseil – but the minute my feet hit the floor, I wanted to do it again.
Now, if you’ll excuse me, I’m off to write another masterpiece!
You can buy my book here – and if you purchase before the end of October 2015 using the code OCTOBER, it’s only £2.50!
You must be doing something right being in the paper and on tv so i wouldn't worry too much your writing is obviously wanted. Good luck with sales! thismummylark recently posted...Halloween eeeeek!
Laura's Lovely Blog
Oh wow, good for you and what a fantastic achievement, I hope that it goes really well for you :) Laura's Lovely Blog recently posted...Blog Love: Five Blogs I have Loved This Month (October 15)
lucy at occupation:(m)other
Ah wow, how exciting! Sometimes you just need to do the thing you're worrying about. Good luck with it and it'll be exciting to see where it takes you next! lucy at occupation:(m)other recently posted...F is for Filigree, Fireworks & Flashcards
WooHoo! Way to go! How exciting =-) I think that's something on many of our to-do lists & you did it! Congrats! Thanks for sharing this inspiring news. Good luck! I'm sure that your book will do great! -Krista Krista-lee-Pfeiffer recently posted...The Secret to Sustained Sobriety